High Expectations . . . .

So, yesterday was my second follow-up visit with my endo after going on the pump in mid-April. It was also time for my next A1C test. For once, I was excited about this. When last tested, in February, I was at 6.8. I couldn't wait to see what the lab had to say this time. Maybe I would finally have fallen below 6.5!!!

Well, I was quite disappointed when the doctor told me my A1C came back at . . . . 6.7. I only went down one lousy 10th of a point!

However, my endo was quite pleased. According to him, many people find their A1C goes up right after switching to the pump - due to all of the adjustments and the learning process and getting everything set. He was happy to see me actually being 1/10th of a point lower.

I admitted to him that as much as I love the pump, I notice it has caused me to put even more pressure on myself to be perfect. I expect each and every reading to be in the 80 - 120 range, and am disappointed in myself when they aren't. He reminded me that everything is NEVER going to be perfect. That's just not realistic. We can make them better than they were, but we can't make them PERFECT.

I left his office with praise from him and a vote of confidence that I will do just great in the three months until my next appointment. He reminded me to call if things start to go wacky and we need to tweak again. But he is thrilled with how I've handled things so far.

So why do I still feel I should have done better? Do you put unreasonably high expectations on yourself too?